原来如此

今天刘美女过生日，生日快乐！
原来大家都有自己喜欢的人，这是我今天最大的感慨！天哪，雷死我了！
同时，我很高兴，很为朋友们骄傲，真的。知道她们都有自己喜欢的人，我真的从内心感到骄傲，这三个女人，平时都深藏不露啊，哈哈！

还有一点，SMU居然有那么多中国男生，只是我从没看见过……

Black Humor

I have been listening to this song over and over. It's a sad song, and I'm a sad person. I like it.

享受

突然间，我意识到了一个问题，有些事情是要享受的，而不是在其中受折磨的，像一个人的旅游，像谈一场恋爱。

有些事情，干嘛要去折磨自己？

失意

我很不喜欢一直沉浸在失意中的自己。面前有很多事情，需要我踏踏实实的去做，而这种沉沦，只是消磨意志罢了。

我希望自己能够学习“拿得起，放得下”，做不到，也要去尝试！

下周AFA quiz 2加油！

命运

我有一种命运，表面上逞强，装作什么也不在乎，其实不知在幕后有多少次偷偷抹眼泪……
不管我要怎么自强，要怎么真正拿得起放得下，我始终摆脱不了这种命运。

Tears of a man

Girls cry; we cry a lot, or at least i cry a lot;
I can see other girls cry, i can see children cry, for me, the feeling towards them is simply sympathy;

But i can't see a man with tears, i just can't…

I remember my papa's tears when i was having an operation; i was only 12 then, so i felt the pain, the pain for my wound only, not for my papa's tears. But i remember it, and i feel painful for that ever since i began to understand love.

"Eat, Pray, Love", if i were Liz, i wouldn't have left Steven, i would never. He said, his dream was to have Liz. He cried in the lift. He had the faith to "correct" himself just for Liz. He took his wedding vows seriously, until death. With that, i would spend the rest of my life with him.

I saw Philip cry too, for his son. He had tears in the eyes for his ex-wife. It's just too touching to see those tears... And i can't take it.

Why are men crying so much nowadays? I believe that those are the expressions of true feelings, pain for the child, missing the child, love for the wife. unlike me, whose tears are sometimes just a sign of weakness , or to relieve...

Aidan

If you ever meet an Aidan Shaw, or Fei Yunfan (费云帆), marry him!

荒废的一天

今天早10：30才到学校，开了个效率低下的AFA会

然后做strategy project, （only to find that i DIDN'T SAVE!大四的人了，还会犯这种错误，我实在不想活啊！）

然后吃饭，**人说要去观音庙去拜拜，然后怂恿我也去。可能出于昨天做事太有效率，我居然给自己放了个小假，就随他去了。一去就是一下午……

晚上CAT的会，又难得我们无法前进……

我的一天啊，就这样浪费了！

为了惩罚自己，我现在必须把Strategy project赶出来，才能睡觉！！！
一会儿再更新，看看什么时候弄完！天啊，明天还有一天的安排呢！都怪自己，太不能自制了，今天就堕落！

what do i need

上周recess，终于盼到了recess week,结果生了一场重病，一直到现在还没有恢复。
Recess之前，整天早起晚睡，为了各个quiz,各种meeting做准备。而终于可以休息的时候，却无法好好休息，真是可笑……

现在，身体还是很虚，整天感觉在飘，而面前却摆着5个即将开始却在不久的将来就due的projects,我还有这个精力去应付它们吗？我真的需要super power...

或许，一点一点的做吧，该做的，终究逃不到。踏踏实实的从头开始才是真！

I just can't

不能说再见，不能承受离别，我就是做不到。
想当初，离开Perth的时候，就算发生了那么多不愉快的事情，还是为离开那个生活了5个月的地方，为那一段难忘的记忆而哭得稀里哗啦；
跟朋友分别，强颜欢笑依次拥抱，而转身，泪如雨下；
而如今……
我该如何面对现在的及未来的各种分别？

Last mid-term

Last mid-term exam is coming in 8 hours. I'd better go to sleep now!
Just finish my revision, aww!
Everybody, wish me luck! :)