I was walking down Caporn Street to the shopping center, passing by a small lemonade booth set up by two little girls.
Girl: Would you like a lemonade?
Me: No, thanks.
She was a bit disappointed, and said to the other girl, "We have no business..."
Trying not to disappoint her, I asked, "How much is it?"
"15 cents," answered her.
I handed her 50 cents, and waited for my lemonade to get ready. Meanwhile, she was looking for the change, obviously, i confused 15 with 50. So I gave her a 20 cents coin, got back the 50 cents, asked her to keep the change, and told her that I would grab my lemonade on my way back home.
When I went back, they have left the booth, but I found a lemonade on the table. Apparently, they left it for me. So I grabbed it, and walked towards home.
A girl was running over towards me, it was the lemonade girl.
Girl: My friend is going home; my mum said i couldn't do it alone, so we just closed the booth.
Me: Don't worry.
Girl: Have you tried the lemonade? My friend and I made it by ourselves; it's very nice, better than the ones in the supermarket!
Me: Oh really?! Let me try. (I took a sip) Yes, it's quite nice!
Walking in the same direction with her, i continued the conversation.
Me: so how much did you make today?
Girl: hmm, let me see (counting the coins in her hand)... 1 Dollar & 80 cents.
I couldn't help smiling, "haha!"
Girl: Why? That's quite good!
She appeared a bit serious, so I stopped laughing and assented, "yea, that's quite good!"
"Earlier this afternoon, we had different sizes of cups, and a large one sells 50 cents!" She looked very happy and proud.
When we reached my apartment building, we saw another boy from my neighbours. "Hey! We sold all the lemonades, there's no more for you!" Apparently, she's showing off.
"You want to have mine?" I offered him; he was silent, and looked sad.
Later, I heard him talking to his mother, "They were selling lemonade and they sold all."
A large lemonade selling 50 cents can make a little girl happy; an afternoon's total earning of $1.8 could make her thrilled; a job making and selling lemonade could bring her pride. What about us?
Watching my favouriate Australian show, "Deal or No Deal", I felt lucky for the people who walked away with huge amounts of money. However, how many people didn't stop when they should? Everybody says, "I don't want to be greedy"; however, in front of all the shining money, a tiny little hope that it might become theirs edges out their intellect, they became greedy and lost more on the contrary.
So everything boils down to one simple question, "How much is enough?" While we are struggling to make more money everyday by all means; while we are complaining about the lack of $$$ every minute, are we losing the most important things along the way, the things we used to treasure, the things we are looking forward to in the future, the things we are working towards, the things we think we will enjoy in the future, such as happiness, or a holiday.
When the difference between the poor and the rich can be summarized as the difference bewteen lying on a beach in Perth and Hawaii, why would a Perth person work so hard, save everything to fly to Hawaii?
And think about the days when we were little kids, when we could smile because our parents got us a candy. If we still have that mind of contentment, life would be much simplier, and we would be much happier!
Showing posts with label It's all about Nana. Show all posts
Showing posts with label It's all about Nana. Show all posts
Monday, May 31, 2010
Saturday, May 15, 2010
我的世界
我知道自己有时候想法还是很幼稚，总想象着有一个完美的世界，这样的世界中有完美的人，纯粹的去关心别人，有纯洁的友谊，没有世故、圆滑、小心眼。于是，我想象着自己生活在一个不一样的世界中，可以真心的与别人交朋友，真切的去关心别人，没有任何目的。就像电影"Enchanted"中的世界一样。有时候，为了谦虚，为了不让别人感到不好，我宁愿被别人误会成"笨"，而我也毫无怨言，因为我知道自己并不笨，只要大家都开心就好。很多时候，我会是懦弱的一方，不敢说话，但更重要的是，我经常快乐的生活着，无忧无虑，轻松而欢快。总感觉自己已经看破了尘世，没有多大的事情可以烦到我，人与人之间的勾心斗角对我来说，好像已是前世之事，已经不在我的世界之中了。
但我还是会不高兴，或者说是失望。总觉得出现在我的世界中的人，也是跟我一国的，有着一种纯粹。然而，每个人都有不一样的世界，我怎么可能要求别人跟自己生活在同一种生活方式中？或许，自己的世界，在别人看来只是一种不谙世事与幼稚罢了。而事实是如何，我又怎样为自己的世界辩解？或许更确切的问题是，我为什么还会为别人的举措而感到失望？只是因为“别人”也是出现在自己生活中的人，影响着自己的人。我不再感到对他们失望的那一刻，也就是他们离开我的内心世界的时候，我只是不知道是不是每一个人都将最终离开，也不知道那将是什么时候……
记得以前自己算过几次命，不管准不准，我记得算命人跟我说，你以后会幸福的。一个会看指纹的朋友也说，你以后会幸福的。对他们说的别的话，我可以将信将疑，但对此，我从来没有怀疑过。或许是在骗自己，但我相信我会幸福的，因为我一直都生活在幸福之中。没有什么力量可以比内心的快乐与幸福更强大，而这种快乐的源泉在于看破尘世，或者说是不谙世事，总而言之，是不为凡世之事所累。有这样一种力量，我还乞求什么呢？
我只想说，我不乞求一个富裕的男朋友，虽然口上时时说要找个富翁，只是玩笑罢了。我只想找一个人可以跟我一起在这样的世界中生活，如果没有，我甘愿自己独处一世，我也知足。
但我还是会不高兴，或者说是失望。总觉得出现在我的世界中的人，也是跟我一国的，有着一种纯粹。然而，每个人都有不一样的世界，我怎么可能要求别人跟自己生活在同一种生活方式中？或许，自己的世界，在别人看来只是一种不谙世事与幼稚罢了。而事实是如何，我又怎样为自己的世界辩解？或许更确切的问题是，我为什么还会为别人的举措而感到失望？只是因为“别人”也是出现在自己生活中的人，影响着自己的人。我不再感到对他们失望的那一刻，也就是他们离开我的内心世界的时候，我只是不知道是不是每一个人都将最终离开，也不知道那将是什么时候……
记得以前自己算过几次命，不管准不准，我记得算命人跟我说，你以后会幸福的。一个会看指纹的朋友也说，你以后会幸福的。对他们说的别的话，我可以将信将疑，但对此，我从来没有怀疑过。或许是在骗自己，但我相信我会幸福的，因为我一直都生活在幸福之中。没有什么力量可以比内心的快乐与幸福更强大，而这种快乐的源泉在于看破尘世，或者说是不谙世事，总而言之，是不为凡世之事所累。有这样一种力量，我还乞求什么呢？
我只想说，我不乞求一个富裕的男朋友，虽然口上时时说要找个富翁，只是玩笑罢了。我只想找一个人可以跟我一起在这样的世界中生活，如果没有，我甘愿自己独处一世，我也知足。
Thursday, April 29, 2010
10 Must Dos with Nana
Recently, I have been living alone in a 1+1 flat, enjoying the spacious apartment, and the personal space with friends far far away in other countries. Therefore, I got a bit narcissistic, haha!
Several days ago, i bought a piece of pumpkin, just wanna to eat pumpkin. Have you ever tried those pumpkin pancakes in Singapore when you go to eat steamboat? I have never tried, because I dare not! I just dare not try. Strangely enough, I want to cook them! So here they are! My second try (The first time wasn't good):
When I was cooking pumpkin pancakes, I was thinking about this topic, "10 things you must do with Nana if you are a good friend of hers". How did i start this thought? I just met a new Singaporean friend here. She said she wanted to eat curry stuff, so I went to the web to see how to cook curry chicken, and am thinking to cook it next time she eat at my place. I'm a quite generous person towards my friends, so I'm willing to do many things for them, and with them. Therefore, a good way to measure how close we are is by looking at how many things we have done together. Fair enough? So, I'm compiling this list of 10 "must-dos".
1. Make a change on her: Yes, I take most food, but only normal food which is acceptable to me. I didn't drink milktea, carrot juice, ice coffee. I didn't take Indian food; I was a computer idiot. But now, everything has changed, and all those changes were caused by my friends. No matter what happens, whether they are still my good friends or not, they have made changes on me, and I won't forget how I got to drink milktea, carrot juice, never. If you haven't made any change to me, start with buying me all sorts of drinks! hahahaha!
2. Make a change for her: You can change her, so she wants to change you too.
3. Try her dumplings: most people know that I'm not a bad cook, and dumplings are my speciality. HAHA.:) But I don't cook very often now, and I cook more for my girlfriends, or special occassions only.
4. Get her to cook a meal you like: HAHA. It looks like everything is food related. Yea, I'm willing to cook some special food for my friends, so if you wanna anything, just let me know, then you will get it soon. (provided that I have time, and all the cooking equipment)
5. Watch drama/movie with her: I'm a very optmistic person, so I'm always very cheerful and happy. However, this person always cries at movies/dramas, especially those emotional Korean dramas or Taiwan ones. It's very funny to watch drama with me, see my tears fall, my eyes get red and puffy, what's funnier, I laugh at myself immediately after the show.
6. Tell her about your trouble: It's very strange that I'm willing to listen to my friends' trouble. Maybe it's because I enjoy helping them out. There's this saying, if there is 1 pain, you split it, we both get 1 half. Yes, I'm willing to share that half.
7. Let her make a joke about you: Nana is very funny, probably you know that.:) So let her make a joke about you, and you will remember that joke forever. Anyway, it's just a white joke, even though it doesn't sound very nice, but no harm was intended! Like "听妈妈的话", 哈哈！
8. Watch her do stupid things: Nana is very good at doing stupid things. For example, when she's walking alone, she would think about some funny stuff, and laugh or pat her head; she always talks to herself, like "加油，Fan Nana！", or "Fan Nana，你真搞笑！", "Fan Nana, 你真是笨死了！" It would be fun to catch any of these.
9. Get a hug! A hug is the closest gesture I could give and accept as a friend, haha! And yea, a hug does calm me down when I'm worried; it's also an expression of care if i give you a hug. But, limited amout only. haha!
10. Get your rumor from her: another good trait about Nana is that, she can originate your rumor! 100% original thoughts, absolutely no copyright issue! haha! Good thing or bad thing, i don't care, but it's very likely to happen! Think about yourselves, how many of you haven't gotten 1 from me? I'll make it up to you! (Again, white lie, no harm intended)
So, of 10 in the list, how many have you gotten/done? As long as there is something, it means you are special to me...
Several days ago, i bought a piece of pumpkin, just wanna to eat pumpkin. Have you ever tried those pumpkin pancakes in Singapore when you go to eat steamboat? I have never tried, because I dare not! I just dare not try. Strangely enough, I want to cook them! So here they are! My second try (The first time wasn't good):
When I was cooking pumpkin pancakes, I was thinking about this topic, "10 things you must do with Nana if you are a good friend of hers". How did i start this thought? I just met a new Singaporean friend here. She said she wanted to eat curry stuff, so I went to the web to see how to cook curry chicken, and am thinking to cook it next time she eat at my place. I'm a quite generous person towards my friends, so I'm willing to do many things for them, and with them. Therefore, a good way to measure how close we are is by looking at how many things we have done together. Fair enough? So, I'm compiling this list of 10 "must-dos".
1. Make a change on her: Yes, I take most food, but only normal food which is acceptable to me. I didn't drink milktea, carrot juice, ice coffee. I didn't take Indian food; I was a computer idiot. But now, everything has changed, and all those changes were caused by my friends. No matter what happens, whether they are still my good friends or not, they have made changes on me, and I won't forget how I got to drink milktea, carrot juice, never. If you haven't made any change to me, start with buying me all sorts of drinks! hahahaha!
2. Make a change for her: You can change her, so she wants to change you too.
3. Try her dumplings: most people know that I'm not a bad cook, and dumplings are my speciality. HAHA.:) But I don't cook very often now, and I cook more for my girlfriends, or special occassions only.
4. Get her to cook a meal you like: HAHA. It looks like everything is food related. Yea, I'm willing to cook some special food for my friends, so if you wanna anything, just let me know, then you will get it soon. (provided that I have time, and all the cooking equipment)
5. Watch drama/movie with her: I'm a very optmistic person, so I'm always very cheerful and happy. However, this person always cries at movies/dramas, especially those emotional Korean dramas or Taiwan ones. It's very funny to watch drama with me, see my tears fall, my eyes get red and puffy, what's funnier, I laugh at myself immediately after the show.
6. Tell her about your trouble: It's very strange that I'm willing to listen to my friends' trouble. Maybe it's because I enjoy helping them out. There's this saying, if there is 1 pain, you split it, we both get 1 half. Yes, I'm willing to share that half.
7. Let her make a joke about you: Nana is very funny, probably you know that.:) So let her make a joke about you, and you will remember that joke forever. Anyway, it's just a white joke, even though it doesn't sound very nice, but no harm was intended! Like "听妈妈的话", 哈哈！
8. Watch her do stupid things: Nana is very good at doing stupid things. For example, when she's walking alone, she would think about some funny stuff, and laugh or pat her head; she always talks to herself, like "加油，Fan Nana！", or "Fan Nana，你真搞笑！", "Fan Nana, 你真是笨死了！" It would be fun to catch any of these.
9. Get a hug! A hug is the closest gesture I could give and accept as a friend, haha! And yea, a hug does calm me down when I'm worried; it's also an expression of care if i give you a hug. But, limited amout only. haha!
10. Get your rumor from her: another good trait about Nana is that, she can originate your rumor! 100% original thoughts, absolutely no copyright issue! haha! Good thing or bad thing, i don't care, but it's very likely to happen! Think about yourselves, how many of you haven't gotten 1 from me? I'll make it up to you! (Again, white lie, no harm intended)
So, of 10 in the list, how many have you gotten/done? As long as there is something, it means you are special to me...
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
You can always be yourself!
Just finished my third presentation since last Friday, and i just want to say, "you can always be yourself!"
I'm taking this unit, "ASEAN economic history". Professor is an Asian, but looks like from areas around Bangladesh. He has an accent which is difficult to understand; he doesn't know what is presentation, because he normally read out the slides; he knows very limited technology, and couldn't even use PPT in tutorial room. Honestly, i don't like him, and i find all the lessons very boring.
Therefore, our tutorials are boring, too. In tutorials, we are to give presentations on particular topics. Learnt from Professor's presentation, my classmates present in the way he did, read out the handouts, little interaction, what's worse, nobody's listening...
I don't like it, i don't like it that people don't take things seriously; i don't like it that people do things just for the sake of doing it. For my presentation, i did tons of research, through two library resources. I really enjoyed the process of research, and I enjoy the journey of learning new things.
And I'm a Toastmaster, I can't tolerate my presentation to be the same as those of my classmates, i can't. You present your findings to your classmates, and if they are not listening, don't you feel that your effort has been wasted? Therefore, I did beautiful slides, and presented with them during tutorial. During my presentation, I could see that, people are listening, at least paying attention if can't concentrate. And with that, I'm satisfied.
Q&A, nobody asked me questions, so i knew that's because my presentation is either too bad, or too good. And i decided to leave it as it is, it's alright even if it's too bad, i have done my job. Till the end of the class, a classmate told me, "Your presentation was very good!"
Yes, you can always be yourself if you want to. Just be you, the "you" who makes you YOU!
I'm taking this unit, "ASEAN economic history". Professor is an Asian, but looks like from areas around Bangladesh. He has an accent which is difficult to understand; he doesn't know what is presentation, because he normally read out the slides; he knows very limited technology, and couldn't even use PPT in tutorial room. Honestly, i don't like him, and i find all the lessons very boring.
Therefore, our tutorials are boring, too. In tutorials, we are to give presentations on particular topics. Learnt from Professor's presentation, my classmates present in the way he did, read out the handouts, little interaction, what's worse, nobody's listening...
I don't like it, i don't like it that people don't take things seriously; i don't like it that people do things just for the sake of doing it. For my presentation, i did tons of research, through two library resources. I really enjoyed the process of research, and I enjoy the journey of learning new things.
And I'm a Toastmaster, I can't tolerate my presentation to be the same as those of my classmates, i can't. You present your findings to your classmates, and if they are not listening, don't you feel that your effort has been wasted? Therefore, I did beautiful slides, and presented with them during tutorial. During my presentation, I could see that, people are listening, at least paying attention if can't concentrate. And with that, I'm satisfied.
Q&A, nobody asked me questions, so i knew that's because my presentation is either too bad, or too good. And i decided to leave it as it is, it's alright even if it's too bad, i have done my job. Till the end of the class, a classmate told me, "Your presentation was very good!"
Yes, you can always be yourself if you want to. Just be you, the "you" who makes you YOU!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Bad things happened in a row
Got to know some Chinese students through a Japanese friend, so got to know that they are all awared a scholarship which is supposed to be available to Asian students, but Singapore is an exception.
Couldn't concentrate reviewing Phychology. Before lecture, found a Chinese student besides me, so i was very glad and started to talk to him. But things don't work out as well as what you think, he appeared very proud, so i hate proud people!
After my education tutorial, i was walking back home till half way, but found my sunglasses missing again! Went back to the education library, luckily, it was sleeping there. Or i would have killed myself!
Cooked mutton again, but too much is too much! I don't feel like eating it any more!
Just when i was resting on bed, a violent storm came, with hailstone as big as eggs! "bang-bang-bang", it was very scaring! And suddenly, i heard the sound of window breaking, i thought it was from the neighbour's, but it turned out to be mine! Correctly speaking, most windows of the building were smashed. I started to panic, looking at the ground full of white hailstones, i was terrified. Half of the leaves/fruits on the tree fell, and some tree were only left with branches...
Car accidents happened everywhere; cars were smashed in so many places; library was closed. The glasshouses of the School of Agriculture were damaged so heavily.
There was still a welcome drink to be held in Business school @4:30, and i had to be there. After the storm, i was so terrified; even i went there, i didn't feel like speaking or talking, and everybody looks professional, so i left...
In the evening when i was cooking, the power went out! The room turned dark! In the light of a small torch, i started my dinner...
My roomie came home, she brought the power back! But with a piece of news i'm not sure if it's good or bad, she's going home for holiday for about a month because of the damages to her glasshouse, she couldn't continue with other experiment. Would i be scared in the autumn or winter, when storm is often...
And then, i had diarrhea, and felt tired...
During the night, i couldn't sleep well, woke up many times...
Are the bad things enough???
Couldn't concentrate reviewing Phychology. Before lecture, found a Chinese student besides me, so i was very glad and started to talk to him. But things don't work out as well as what you think, he appeared very proud, so i hate proud people!
After my education tutorial, i was walking back home till half way, but found my sunglasses missing again! Went back to the education library, luckily, it was sleeping there. Or i would have killed myself!
Cooked mutton again, but too much is too much! I don't feel like eating it any more!
Just when i was resting on bed, a violent storm came, with hailstone as big as eggs! "bang-bang-bang", it was very scaring! And suddenly, i heard the sound of window breaking, i thought it was from the neighbour's, but it turned out to be mine! Correctly speaking, most windows of the building were smashed. I started to panic, looking at the ground full of white hailstones, i was terrified. Half of the leaves/fruits on the tree fell, and some tree were only left with branches...
Car accidents happened everywhere; cars were smashed in so many places; library was closed. The glasshouses of the School of Agriculture were damaged so heavily.
There was still a welcome drink to be held in Business school @4:30, and i had to be there. After the storm, i was so terrified; even i went there, i didn't feel like speaking or talking, and everybody looks professional, so i left...
In the evening when i was cooking, the power went out! The room turned dark! In the light of a small torch, i started my dinner...
My roomie came home, she brought the power back! But with a piece of news i'm not sure if it's good or bad, she's going home for holiday for about a month because of the damages to her glasshouse, she couldn't continue with other experiment. Would i be scared in the autumn or winter, when storm is often...
And then, i had diarrhea, and felt tired...
During the night, i couldn't sleep well, woke up many times...
Are the bad things enough???
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Farewell
Right now, Nana has 5 circles, E&Y, Toastmasters, Friends, Family & Acquitance. Farewell parties with the first 3 categories for the last several days. It's good to gather friends because of me, but after the farewell, I couldn't help crying.
E&Y: My first proper internship. I met those wonderful people, Joy, Joan, Victr, Chor Chia, SL. Some of them have become my good friends now. In the past several weeks, we worked together, we made fun of each other, they helped and guided me throughout the whole process!
Joy: I'll remember your "ENT", and your chicken, even though they are both mine!
Joan: As per Joan, some people were stocktaking rubbish.
Victor: You want to name your son Vincent, what if your mum disagrees? (I'm sorry for bringing that up again!)
SL: Who would drink slurpee everyday except for you?
Those days were so fun! And I started to miss all these on my last day. Miss the fun, miss the people!
Chor Chia asked me: so nana, were you bullied by any of them during your internship?
Me: Oh yea! They always bully me! Only Joan is the nicest to me.
Victor: Oh, then why do i feel bullied?
Me: Well, I can't explain this.
After I told Joy, she laughed, "Ha, you always bully the A1s."
Yea, I remember the A1s who are the closest to me. Remember that Joy used to fill the blanks with 0 for me; Remember that Victor has never been mad of me no matter what I do or what I say, even with "his favouriate song".
They have many worlds that they can live in, to mingle with people; but for the days i was there, they were in my world, the little world that includes little about auditing, too much about stupid things. And they wouldn't mind being in this.
Thank you all!
Toastmasters: I have never imagined that one day, I would have a farewell party from Toastmasters. I thought my last meeting on Tuesday was the farewell, which proved that Toastmasters are all weird people. And I like those weird people.
Yes, it's difficult to say Goodbye, to our club, to 1 year of VPE. But we all have to do that. And at the end of the day, we will be so happy to see the next Executive Committee bring SMU TMC to a higher level, and we know that, we contributed to the bottom of that height!
E&Y: My first proper internship. I met those wonderful people, Joy, Joan, Victr, Chor Chia, SL. Some of them have become my good friends now. In the past several weeks, we worked together, we made fun of each other, they helped and guided me throughout the whole process!
Joy: I'll remember your "ENT", and your chicken, even though they are both mine!
Joan: As per Joan, some people were stocktaking rubbish.
Victor: You want to name your son Vincent, what if your mum disagrees? (I'm sorry for bringing that up again!)
SL: Who would drink slurpee everyday except for you?
Those days were so fun! And I started to miss all these on my last day. Miss the fun, miss the people!
Chor Chia asked me: so nana, were you bullied by any of them during your internship?
Me: Oh yea! They always bully me! Only Joan is the nicest to me.
Victor: Oh, then why do i feel bullied?
Me: Well, I can't explain this.
After I told Joy, she laughed, "Ha, you always bully the A1s."
Yea, I remember the A1s who are the closest to me. Remember that Joy used to fill the blanks with 0 for me; Remember that Victor has never been mad of me no matter what I do or what I say, even with "his favouriate song".
They have many worlds that they can live in, to mingle with people; but for the days i was there, they were in my world, the little world that includes little about auditing, too much about stupid things. And they wouldn't mind being in this.
Thank you all!
Toastmasters: I have never imagined that one day, I would have a farewell party from Toastmasters. I thought my last meeting on Tuesday was the farewell, which proved that Toastmasters are all weird people. And I like those weird people.
Yes, it's difficult to say Goodbye, to our club, to 1 year of VPE. But we all have to do that. And at the end of the day, we will be so happy to see the next Executive Committee bring SMU TMC to a higher level, and we know that, we contributed to the bottom of that height!
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Difficult to say Goodbye
It's always difficult to say "Goodbye", because it's even difficult for me to actually type them out.
Talking to Jasmine the other day,
She said, "I'm going to miss this, the things we do in SMU TMC exco".
Nana, "You have to let it go."
Yes, we have to let it go. Just sent out my last program sheet, and from next week onwards, I won't be so worried looking for meeting roles, inviting guests, so nervous that I couldnt eat for every Tuesday... But I'm going to miss this.
Leaving for Perth on 15th Feb, leaving my friends, and the people I just got to know whom I'm going to miss so much.
Ok, Tuesday is surely going to be my farewell meeting.
Tears are filling my eyes, listening to Jingru's "属于", I don't know if I'm doing the right things, don't know if the things I seek after actually belong to me...
梁静茹 - 属于
我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我赶追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了 不要呢
或许吧 或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱 该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢 不要呢?
是他吧 命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧 他原来就在这里啊
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
Talking to Jasmine the other day,
She said, "I'm going to miss this, the things we do in SMU TMC exco".
Nana, "You have to let it go."
Yes, we have to let it go. Just sent out my last program sheet, and from next week onwards, I won't be so worried looking for meeting roles, inviting guests, so nervous that I couldnt eat for every Tuesday... But I'm going to miss this.
Leaving for Perth on 15th Feb, leaving my friends, and the people I just got to know whom I'm going to miss so much.
Ok, Tuesday is surely going to be my farewell meeting.
Tears are filling my eyes, listening to Jingru's "属于", I don't know if I'm doing the right things, don't know if the things I seek after actually belong to me...
梁静茹 - 属于
我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我赶追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了 不要呢
或许吧 或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱 该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢 不要呢?
是他吧 命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧 他原来就在这里啊
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
Sunday, January 31, 2010
nana
I just couldn't understand, at these days, who would still cry over cinderella's movie?
This is so...i couldn't explain.
This is so...i couldn't explain.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Personality, dream & reality
My personality tells me that, I need to work around people, not around numbers;
My dream tells me that, I want to educate people and make the world a better place;
The reality tells me that, I have to work with numbers, and can't change anything in the workplace!
Accounting??? A career? Or a job? I don't worry about this, coz the answer is definitely not a career. But what I'm worrying about is, can I even stick to this job for some time, as an auditor?
Question waiting to be answered!
My dream tells me that, I want to educate people and make the world a better place;
The reality tells me that, I have to work with numbers, and can't change anything in the workplace!
Accounting??? A career? Or a job? I don't worry about this, coz the answer is definitely not a career. But what I'm worrying about is, can I even stick to this job for some time, as an auditor?
Question waiting to be answered!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Charisma
Nana just got back to normal life. Have been too tired recently, that she had a headache for a whole day! She couldn't take it, and it's the first time she took pain-killers for headache, which proved that her headache problem is getting worse and worse now.
Nana went to exco meeting this afternoon, and has a good time with other team members. Toastmaster Cher Khim has said that Toastmasters have an unique character, and to put it in a simple way - "weird"! Nana likes these weird people, who are so dedicated to Toastmasters, who are so driven to improve themselves!
Talking about Charisma, Jasmine mentioned that, the people who are so driven towards a particular interest are charismatic. Yes, that's very true! And who can impress people the best? Toastmasters!
Very long time ago, a toastmaster from another club came to SMU Toastmasters, and Nana immediately had a crush on him after his table topics speech, and that evening, he managed to win two of the ribbons. After that, Nana got herself out after 3-4 days, haha! Funny experience!
When you are thinking that, maybe it's because Nana was still immature at that time, but it just so happened that, Nana is having a crush on another toastmaster! And she couldn't get herself out!
Why???!!! She so couldn't understand!
Back to Charisma, she believes that the people who possess some kind of special interests are charismatic! Such as CJ, with finance; the two toastmasters, the way they speak and express themselves really impress people!
Toastmasters, such an easy to gain charisma, especially for the guys!
Nana went to exco meeting this afternoon, and has a good time with other team members. Toastmaster Cher Khim has said that Toastmasters have an unique character, and to put it in a simple way - "weird"! Nana likes these weird people, who are so dedicated to Toastmasters, who are so driven to improve themselves!
Talking about Charisma, Jasmine mentioned that, the people who are so driven towards a particular interest are charismatic. Yes, that's very true! And who can impress people the best? Toastmasters!
Very long time ago, a toastmaster from another club came to SMU Toastmasters, and Nana immediately had a crush on him after his table topics speech, and that evening, he managed to win two of the ribbons. After that, Nana got herself out after 3-4 days, haha! Funny experience!
When you are thinking that, maybe it's because Nana was still immature at that time, but it just so happened that, Nana is having a crush on another toastmaster! And she couldn't get herself out!
Why???!!! She so couldn't understand!
Back to Charisma, she believes that the people who possess some kind of special interests are charismatic! Such as CJ, with finance; the two toastmasters, the way they speak and express themselves really impress people!
Toastmasters, such an easy to gain charisma, especially for the guys!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Hesitation
70% sure that I'm leaving soon;
30% hope & hesitation that something will change and good things will happen.
I want to escape...
Perth! Meet you soon!
30% hope & hesitation that something will change and good things will happen.
I want to escape...
Perth! Meet you soon!
Friday, November 27, 2009
Public holiday
When public holiday is no longer holiday, are people still the people you knew?
It's very easy to get me upset recently, yes, very easy! About friends, about family, about study, about the gossip around...
Things change, people change, but what changes even faster is the mind! When mind changes, eveything will change!
I hope the things I love will remain the same, but I'm a little scard that, I'm beginning to lose something very important...
It's very easy to get me upset recently, yes, very easy! About friends, about family, about study, about the gossip around...
Things change, people change, but what changes even faster is the mind! When mind changes, eveything will change!
I hope the things I love will remain the same, but I'm a little scard that, I'm beginning to lose something very important...
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Thanksgiving
It is Thanksgiving Day today, and I only realised it this moment!
I want to thank my parents for what they have done for me!
I wanna thank my friends for keeping me company throughout the time abroad!
I wanna thank my best friends, for always forgiving me whatever mistake I have made, and being there for me, always!
Every thanksgiving is a point of time, when you can truly reflect about yourself. Have you been nice to the people around you? Is there anything that you need to change in order to be the person you always want to be?
For me, I want to be more frank with myself, and exclude all the hypocrisy around me!
Work hard for it!
我想认认真真的生活，学习，去除身边一切的虚伪与不现实，用自己的努力，争取一个属于自己的未来！
I want to thank my parents for what they have done for me!
I wanna thank my friends for keeping me company throughout the time abroad!
I wanna thank my best friends, for always forgiving me whatever mistake I have made, and being there for me, always!
Every thanksgiving is a point of time, when you can truly reflect about yourself. Have you been nice to the people around you? Is there anything that you need to change in order to be the person you always want to be?
For me, I want to be more frank with myself, and exclude all the hypocrisy around me!
Work hard for it!
我想认认真真的生活，学习，去除身边一切的虚伪与不现实，用自己的努力，争取一个属于自己的未来！
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
2012
如果世界末日真的要来了，有谁会真正对自己至此的生命无悔？
对自己爱的人，说过爱了吗？
对自己的学习，认真的付出过了吗？
对自己的生活，真正的享受过了吗？
对自己身边的人，留下一丝能让他们在来生能够记住你的地方了吗？
2012，我们该怎么度过？
我突然间感到，生命如此脆弱，纵然有那股追求生命的动力与魄力，又有几人能够幸免于难？而我们，有几个会是所谓的英雄？
享受此刻，认真生活，这样，无论什么时候，我们都可以安静的走，without any fear.
对自己爱的人，说过爱了吗？
对自己的学习，认真的付出过了吗？
对自己的生活，真正的享受过了吗？
对自己身边的人，留下一丝能让他们在来生能够记住你的地方了吗？
2012，我们该怎么度过？
我突然间感到，生命如此脆弱，纵然有那股追求生命的动力与魄力，又有几人能够幸免于难？而我们，有几个会是所谓的英雄？
享受此刻，认真生活，这样，无论什么时候，我们都可以安静的走，without any fear.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Maturity
I have said this before, I'm very emotional, and easily to get touched.
Yes, this is me. And I just had tears in my eyes, because he's growing up, and maturing.
Yes, this is me. And I just had tears in my eyes, because he's growing up, and maturing.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Gossip
I have a bunch of gossip friends, and this post is for you!
Clarification 1: Nana is single but not available, because she is intending to remain single until graduation!
Clarification 2: Nana really cherishes friendship over anything else, therefore, she would choose friendship with CJ over anything else you guys are gossiping about!
Clarification 3: In the mean time when you are gossiping about Nana & CJ, She's not going to change just because of the gossip! She will remain as NANA! And "BE CAREFUL", you should know what this caution means!
Clarification 4: DO NOT publish any more gossip on Xiaonei! You should know that, the gossip among us are not to be published at that kind of place!
Clarification 5: DO NOT gossip when both CJ & Nana are present!
Please abide by all the rules above. Or you should be responsible for all the possible consequences. HAHA!
Clarification 1: Nana is single but not available, because she is intending to remain single until graduation!
Clarification 2: Nana really cherishes friendship over anything else, therefore, she would choose friendship with CJ over anything else you guys are gossiping about!
Clarification 3: In the mean time when you are gossiping about Nana & CJ, She's not going to change just because of the gossip! She will remain as NANA! And "BE CAREFUL", you should know what this caution means!
Clarification 4: DO NOT publish any more gossip on Xiaonei! You should know that, the gossip among us are not to be published at that kind of place!
Clarification 5: DO NOT gossip when both CJ & Nana are present!
Please abide by all the rules above. Or you should be responsible for all the possible consequences. HAHA!
Leave
Last time, WL was talking with me on MSN, and she brought up a point:
"Maybe you could stay & observe, and eventually CJ would notice that, you are the one who is always there for him, supporting him."
"HAHA. Yes, I do support him, but I do the same for a lot of people! He is not the only one."
I happened to recall this message today, and was talking to myself, "One leaves; One will eventually leave if she is not around the right people, even though those people are her best friends for some time."
Often, I believe this notion "philanthropism", and I do act accordingly. I don't care about the personal achievements or loss, but love the people around me generously. I'm happy, and very easily to get happy.
However, when my times come, are there someone for me? Or i have to deceive myself that the people around me love me, and they care for me. Or even they do, do they care about me the extent as I do to them?
That's not even a question to mention. Maybe it's sad, but i believe in this: don't expect the same from others when you do something for them. And i act upon this.
I know that one day, when I'm tired, I can always leave. Just leave quietly, the way I have done many times, to the people who do not deserve this kindness.
"Maybe you could stay & observe, and eventually CJ would notice that, you are the one who is always there for him, supporting him."
"HAHA. Yes, I do support him, but I do the same for a lot of people! He is not the only one."
I happened to recall this message today, and was talking to myself, "One leaves; One will eventually leave if she is not around the right people, even though those people are her best friends for some time."
Often, I believe this notion "philanthropism", and I do act accordingly. I don't care about the personal achievements or loss, but love the people around me generously. I'm happy, and very easily to get happy.
However, when my times come, are there someone for me? Or i have to deceive myself that the people around me love me, and they care for me. Or even they do, do they care about me the extent as I do to them?
That's not even a question to mention. Maybe it's sad, but i believe in this: don't expect the same from others when you do something for them. And i act upon this.
I know that one day, when I'm tired, I can always leave. Just leave quietly, the way I have done many times, to the people who do not deserve this kindness.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
What's up?
Nana is so tired of this phrase now!
When she talked with her friend on MSN, with a "what's up?" as response, Nana felt sad immediately.
"Must need something urgent, then can talk to you meh?" Nana asked.
"HAHA, No, it's just an expression. You haven't been in Singapore long enough!"
Today, she called back home, and received the same response from her mom, "What's up?", without any enthusiasm.
Nana got angry immediately. "Nothing, if i don't have any reason, then i should not call back, right? If so, i'll just hang up now!"
After talking with her mum for a while, Nana's mum wanted to hand over the phone to her father, however, her father reluctantly accepted the phone, claiming that nothing to say.
Nana:"OK! I'm hanging up! Bye bye!"
Tears came out at that moment...
Since when, since when has the relationship become so vulnerable? Every time Nana calls back home, the conversation is always very simple. "What are you doing?" "Have you eaten?" "Are you still working?" "Make something delicious to eat."
When Nana says, "I got the exchange program to go to Perth." "Oh."
When Nana says, "I got the internship with Ernst & Young." "Oh."
Since when, since when, the conversation has become so meaningless? I know, i know that i'm always independent, and you are assured that I can live on my own, i can study without anyone monitoring.
So what? It still serves the purpose of recognising a "home" every time when i call back. And it just broke the little hope in my mind!
I hate that phrase! And I'm not calling back home for 1 month!
When she talked with her friend on MSN, with a "what's up?" as response, Nana felt sad immediately.
"Must need something urgent, then can talk to you meh?" Nana asked.
"HAHA, No, it's just an expression. You haven't been in Singapore long enough!"
Today, she called back home, and received the same response from her mom, "What's up?", without any enthusiasm.
Nana got angry immediately. "Nothing, if i don't have any reason, then i should not call back, right? If so, i'll just hang up now!"
After talking with her mum for a while, Nana's mum wanted to hand over the phone to her father, however, her father reluctantly accepted the phone, claiming that nothing to say.
Nana:"OK! I'm hanging up! Bye bye!"
Tears came out at that moment...
Since when, since when has the relationship become so vulnerable? Every time Nana calls back home, the conversation is always very simple. "What are you doing?" "Have you eaten?" "Are you still working?" "Make something delicious to eat."
When Nana says, "I got the exchange program to go to Perth." "Oh."
When Nana says, "I got the internship with Ernst & Young." "Oh."
Since when, since when, the conversation has become so meaningless? I know, i know that i'm always independent, and you are assured that I can live on my own, i can study without anyone monitoring.
So what? It still serves the purpose of recognising a "home" every time when i call back. And it just broke the little hope in my mind!
I hate that phrase! And I'm not calling back home for 1 month!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
11/11
Nana has come to another 11/11, the so called "Guang Gun Jie" in Chinese. So what? She does enjoy the life right now, being single.
Nana was talking to a best friend called CJ, and she did enjoy the conversation with him, or say, almost every time. People don't need to be together to keep a good relationship, and friendship is the best thing ever on earth! Never try to do any stupid things that would possibly destroy it. This experience came from pain in the past, so don't doubt that.
Nana found that some people always feel complicated on this day. She doesn't know how to describle this feeling, even though she has gone through that before. Just remember, "Time will cure all your hurts".
Nana believes that people have different ways to enjoy life at different time phase, and at this point of time, just do any crazy things you want! Most importantly, enjoy your life by whatever means!
Nana was talking to a best friend called CJ, and she did enjoy the conversation with him, or say, almost every time. People don't need to be together to keep a good relationship, and friendship is the best thing ever on earth! Never try to do any stupid things that would possibly destroy it. This experience came from pain in the past, so don't doubt that.
Nana found that some people always feel complicated on this day. She doesn't know how to describle this feeling, even though she has gone through that before. Just remember, "Time will cure all your hurts".
Nana believes that people have different ways to enjoy life at different time phase, and at this point of time, just do any crazy things you want! Most importantly, enjoy your life by whatever means!
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