Leave

Last time, WL was talking with me on MSN, and she brought up a point:

"Maybe you could stay & observe, and eventually CJ would notice that, you are the one who is always there for him, supporting him."
"HAHA. Yes, I do support him, but I do the same for a lot of people! He is not the only one."

I happened to recall this message today, and was talking to myself, "One leaves; One will eventually leave if she is not around the right people, even though those people are her best friends for some time."

Often, I believe this notion "philanthropism", and I do act accordingly. I don't care about the personal achievements or loss, but love the people around me generously. I'm happy, and very easily to get happy.

However, when my times come, are there someone for me? Or i have to deceive myself that the people around me love me, and they care for me. Or even they do, do they care about me the extent as I do to them?

That's not even a question to mention. Maybe it's sad, but i believe in this: don't expect the same from others when you do something for them. And i act upon this.

I know that one day, when I'm tired, I can always leave. Just leave quietly, the way I have done many times, to the people who do not deserve this kindness.